ShadowdSanity

R.I.P. 11/19/84 - 02/02/10

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Heartache Finds Thee by ShadowdSanity, literature

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Heartache Finds Thee

It was early morning. The sun shone through the front windows of the small coffee shop. He sat alone, staring deeply into his black coffee, awaiting the arrival of someone he hadn't seen in so many months. Someone he had loved for years, who left suddenly without notice or reason. He was contacted recently and asked to meet in this small shop where he now sat nervously. Waiting. He had so many questions running through his mind. Why did you leave? Why couldn't you just talk to me about it? If you loved me, why would you break my heart? You did this once before and saw how much it hurt me. Why would you do it again? Did you think I would actu

Pain and Struggles by ShadowdSanity, literature

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Pain and Struggles

The feel of Death's cold, dark hand Resting on my shoulder, heavy That sound in the background Everything begins to fade away around me... One jolt isn't enough A second jolt, we're almost there A third jolt, I gasp for air and fall back into darkness I see a familiar face, smiling at me He tells me it's okay “Take my hand” he whispers I reach... Another jolt flies through my body Gasping for air once more, then I fall Back into darkness but not the same as before What is this place? I see his familiar face again But something is different His outline is blurry, his face unclear His voice is not as pristine “

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Where Darkness Lies by ShadowdSanity, literature

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Where Darkness Lies

Eyes of red stare back at me from the darkness of the night. I feel myself slowly back away, trying not to show my fright. I sense movement and I look for what it may have been. I see another pair of those red eyes, so near and I feel the darkness sinking into my skin. I know that I am here alone, no one around to hear my cry for help as I feel the creatures creep to me, surely from the very depths of Hell. I feel a sharp pain fly up my spine, from what, is unknown, as I let out a scream. I hear my own howl echo from far off, maybe even farther than it seems. Suddenly I sit up in my bed, safe at home and drenched in sweat.

Gentle Heart by ShadowdSanity, literature

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Gentle Heart

It's early in the morning as I wake, looking to my fiancee sleeping beside me. I slowly climb out of bed giving him a kiss on the cheek so softly. I dressed quickly, staying relaxed, preparing for my morning jog. I sigh as I step outside, the horizon hazy due to the fog. I felt a hand on my shoulder and look back to see Matty. I smile at him and pat his hand, seeing him now making me quite happy. We head out at a steady pace, down the long, straight street. As we near our middle marker, I felt my heart skip a beat. When we stopped to take a rest I paused to check my heart rate. But as I put my hand upon my chest I felt a st

Escape by ShadowdSanity, literature

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Escape

[(Drum solo in beginning... fades in)] I hear somethin' whisperin' in my ear What it's sayin' I cannot hear What's that it's whisperin' in my ear? It's tellin' me to get the hell outta here [Chorus}: How do I get out Gotta find my way out Help me get out I gotta find my way out I feel like the walls are closin' in Everything seems to be cavin' in What's with this world I'm livin' in? I feel it's time to start givin' in. [Chorus] [(Guitar solo)] There's a voice in my head that's tellin' me What a stupid fuck I've been not to see To see this thing that's inside of me This thing that's growin' inside of me I can feel everythi

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Sorrow by DeadlySilent, literature

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Sorrow

Its okay to lose your composure, to cry when you're certain nobody is watching It is impossible for them to see you fall into despair on bended knee In you it is not the show of being weak but the strength you wish people to seek So it is you who can only feel shame and place the burden on the soul of blame Or be a witness to the disheveled mess you have become from heartache and stress when your around people stand your ground by making sure your sorrow can't be found

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You Were Gone by DeadlySilent, literature

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You Were Gone

Hidden deep within are things I ache to say Hot, salty tears that flow after wiping them away I wonder if it's still possible to let him see what's in my heart? Probably not, but this is the best way, my love i can impart I'm composing yet another poem that he will never read because allowing it to be post marked, i can't concede I'll never mail it, hand it to him or let its meaning show Perhaps that's the reason, my feelings, he won't know I have composed so much for him from my heart but i can't let this tear my memories of him apart I have heard, there are things that can't be amended stubbornness prevents me from having compreh

Why Does It Matter by DeadlySilent, literature

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Why Does It Matter

Those who care are there for all afflicted with aids but saddened as scenes from their lives fade Inconsiderate souls care not for their wants Can't all be there with love instead of taunts Survivors systems, each day, fall apart we can provide immunity from our heart Please don't condemn or blame, but love be there,listen as does the Lord above Young children and babies suffer, too Why isn't there more to help we can do God's angels, young and old are without choice life's circumstances left them without a voice Why does matter if HIV/AIDS was gotten by drug use, shared needles, sex or blood transfusion the universe is bli

Killer Called HIV-AIDS by DeadlySilent, literature

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Killer Called HIV-AIDS

In my heart I ask Lord above, please tell me when Will the promises of a better life be fulfilled Who finds happiness, then falls in love? Who becomes infected with the murderous HIV/AIDS And why are others so lucky to be the ones it passes? Why do those people get it and others don't? Why are the infected condemned to die early, when those who aren't have long lives? Children all over the world molested and raped Becoming infected with HIV/AIDS, and affected By the murderous disease living in their cells Dancing with joy for achieving another spirit. Individuals in a "committed relationship" becoming infected and affected with H

Nik Said To Me by DeadlySilent, literature

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Nik Said To Me

A bit ago, Nik said to me Still having courage And a little bit of hope "I have AIDS," he said I was scared out of my mind to know he has this horrid disease that still has no cure. I don't know if he thought I would turn my back on him, disown him, no longer love him instead of being very proud of him for his bravery And his openness in regard to all that he's afraid of and ails him as time goes on All that changes in his life.

Accept Me Without Judgment by DeadlySilent, literature

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Accept Me Without Judgment

AIDS patients cry, accept me without judgment as I am Please don't assume you know why I'm like this Even if you think we're created from the same tethers And as a result we should suffer and die together I may have come in contact from being assistance to those who are having surgery or accident victims Now, though, you look upon me as a sinner Without understanding HIV/AIDS is spread several ways And admit that what you call the immoral contact it always Do not term us as heathens, who have chosen the path of degenerate Because that makes you the sinner and unbelievably cold hearted I cry out to you, accept me without judgment as

Spirits Are Crying by DeadlySilent, literature

I Didn't Bother by DeadlySilent, literature

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I Didn't Bother

I've known for a while that you unfortunately have AIDS You told me even with the fear of a fist being laid Through the years, I beat you, not being a loving father when it came to being a being a supportive parent, i didn't bother I know I had been a scumbag dad, but now I want to be here for you while trying to heal old wounds, if you'll allow me to try to do You moved back here so, we could spend what time is left together but when it came to being the father you need, I flew away like a feather So I came to believe, pain from past and AIDS, you alone must bear Only to see you have people who need you, pray for a cure and truly ca

Promised Land's Door by DeadlySilent, literature

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Promised Land's Door

The world's precious angels are dying from a devastating diseased called AIDS Families are seen uncontrollably crying for an expanse of time nobody can count Tearful prayers are going unanswered by a wish reaching the heavens to help I ask, when will the world's angels count? I plead with you, when will they become well? Does ones unyielding faith receive an answer Or it under the category of time will tell When will their souls, they soar toward heaven to be with God, in a place he lovingly built, a haven The angels, which are human, were in pain through out their lives will sing joyfully in the Lord's Choir, cause they don't fe

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Pain and Struggles by ShadowdSanity, literature

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Pain and Struggles

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About ShadowdSanity

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Nov 19
United Kingdom
Deviant for 20 years
www.myspace.com/shadowdsanity
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Current Residence: Edinburgh, Scotland
deviantWEAR sizing preference: Medium
Print preference: 8x10
Favourite genre of music: Rock, Oldies
Favourite photographer: Not sure
Favourite style of art: All styles =)
Operating System: Windows
MP3 player of choice: iPod nano (3rd gen)
Favourite cartoon character: Bart Simpson
Personal Quote: "When I find myself fading, I close my eyes and realize my friends are my energy." - Anon.

Favourite Visual Artist

It tends to vary

Favourite Movies

The Dark Knight

Favourite Bands / Musical Artists

Maroon 5

Favourite Writers

Edgar Allen Poe, Dean Koontz

Favourite Games

Rock Band, Guitar Hero

Favourite Gaming Platform

PS2/3, Wii, XBOX 360

Tools of the Trade

My mind.

Other Interests

Drawing, writing, reading, puzzles, video games, guitar

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ShadowdSanity

Feb 8, 2010

rip nik 11/19/84 - 02/02/10

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nik passed away on february 2 2010 he was very loved by all & will be greatly missed this page will remain so that all may see his talent for long after he has left this world he had a few works that he had done in his last days & they will be posted soon --jason--

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ShadowdSanity

Mar 12, 2009

Q and A Time

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Directions: 1. Answer the following questions. 2. Tag as much people as possible! 3. BEGIN! Q's and A's: Q: Do you play MapleStory? A: Never heard of it. Q: What game console do you play, if you own one? A: PS2, mostly. Q: Do you have siblings? A: Yes. Q: Have you lost a bet recently? A: With myself. Q: Do you have a crush on anyone? A: Yes. Q: If your crush confessed their love for you, what would likely be your reaction? A: Be giddy with happiness and tell them I felt the same. Q: If so, will you kindly say? A: What? Q: How many shoes do you have, Individually? A: WAYYYYY too many. Q: If you were able to matrix yourself

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ShadowdSanity

Feb 26, 2009

I know, I know...

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I've said this before a couple times now, but I NEED PROJECTS! I will take any requests right now since my creative sense has apparently died. Please send me a note if you have any requests. Thanks! N.M.C.

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DeadlySilent

Oct 6, 2021

Nik,

I don't stop by as much as I should to view your talent, but I'm forever viewing your pictures and remembering our time together on through pictures on Facebook. I'm missing you a lot right now and want you to know that I'm engaged to a wonderful man who treats me well. I love you and I miss you

cholie

Nov 19, 2015

_{_{I don't even know what to say.
You made this place a brighter place.
Two days ago, deviantART notified me of your birthday.
I couldn't help but feel sad, sad that you're gone.
Now, two days later, it's you're birthday but you're not here
not here for me to wish you good cheer.
I hope you are at peace.
I hope you are warm.

Happy birthday...
Thank you so much for being my friend.}}